I am free. And I am lost.
Do you remember from school times when you had a homework to do and you knew it’s there, waiting for you? You might play, you might have fun, but this homework was always there, still not finished, still calling you back home to do work.
With unfinished game it is the same. I can’t actually rest. I can’t fully reset my brain, I can’t just fool around, play video game or watch movie. Unfinished game is there all the time and ask for my attention. Whatever I do, I know I should finish this deck, solve this problem, balance this mechanism, call testers for one more game… It’s obsession. I can’t get this out of my head. Whenever I take shower or have dinner, whenever I watch match in TV or drive a car, I think about the game.
All files to these three boxes are at manufacturers level. I can no longer improve them. It is closed chapter. I am free.
I can play video game. I can watch TV show. I can play board game. And man, this is a strange feeling after these past few months of constant pressure…